Friday, August 31, 2012

Monday, August 6, 2012

The worst blogger EVER!

Okay I have to admit that I might be the worst blogger ever! I read so many other blogs and everyone's posts are so thought provoking and/or humorous that I sit here like every week wanting to write but feel rather inadequate. When I'm away from my computer is when I can write posts up in my head and they make sense and dare I say even sound quite eloquent. Nope not when I sit here and stare at my screen. When I write I sound like my mind is spinning and jumping all over the place. Well, enough about my misfortune in writing brilliant blog posts and on to my attempt to share my heart once again.
When we started this adoption journey almost two years ago I must admit that I was rather ignorant in what was going on in the adoption world. Sitting here today I feel like I am just not doing enough and the thought often comes, "What can I do more of?".  I just don't know, what I do know is that God has changed my thinking dramatically and is still doing so everyday on this subject. I read story after story of an absolutely innocent child with no fault of their own left somewhere to die or sitting in a cage (err I mean crib) for far too long just withering away. It b*r*e*a*k*s my heart! To be honest I really wish I could scoop all of them up and bring them home with me. I know that sounds ludicrous and impossible but it's the truth. I know that I know that our God is more than capable of taking care of His children including those that are forgotten in our world but I have to ask myself, "What is my role?". As many of you know my family is in the process of adopting a little girl from Ethiopia. We don't know who she is yet and think of her constantly. I feel so anxious to get her home so that we can start the process again to bring home more. (Crazy) I know....even to my husband but I can't deny the stirrings in me to save more, to love more, to be open to more. This being open to more is not just more children but maybe children that have larger limitations that aren't deemed as worthy or highly "adoptable". Starting out I probably wouldn't have said that but today God is moving in me and hopefully someday through me for this cause.
Well, as I rambled on about my "dreams" and hopes I pray some of it made some sense to you. :) Praying today for mighty works to be done in and through my family for years to come!